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08-22-2006, 01:45 AM
Hey everybody. I am excited to post this and hopefully get to know some of you. I found this website while researching homosexuality last year. I found some very helpful information and was interested in what the site had to say. It is a great place to gather information. I have long had friends that where homosexual and last year I attended an all girls school in Missouri. The school is a great place for me. I was unsure of my sexual orientation for a long time, and I still struggle sometimes. Not because of conflicting ideas of right and wrong, but because I have never had a relationship of any kind. My parents are great people. They are strongly grounded in their Christian beliefs but they taught me not to discriminate against anyone, especially those of different race, sexual orientation and spiritual beliefs. I have lived my entire life in Duluth, MN. I found it a great place to grow up. People are generally accepting and the GLBT community is fairly open. My GLBT friends are the ones who made me think and one friends particular struggle with Christianity and lesbianism made me research things a little more. The all girls school I'm at has opened me to a new experience and I find it liberating. While I have not come out as bisexual it remains my belief until an experience may change that. I guess I just wanted to say that I have no issues reconciling my Christian beliefs with my sexual orientation or anyone elses. I think this website is a great resource for those who are confused or need a supportive community. My one wish is that someday I will actually have a relationship of some kind, but I can be patient. I hope to hear from some of you. My name by the way, is Meredyth.
08-22-2006, 06:38 AM
Hi Meredyth, my nameís Patrick. Iím glad you found us.
You sound like you have a good handle on this site and on yourself as well.
So, welcome to the forums.
We have great fun here. ;)
08-22-2006, 07:51 AM
I love the spelling of your name. I am so glad that you found your way to this website, these forums, and our great little group here. I agree with Emproph, it sounds like you have a good handle on your beliefs/experiences/processes that will help you to engage in discussion here and guide in your future. As far as a relationship, it is good that you are being patient, because it will come. It is good that you are at least open to what a relationship will solidify for you, meaning, you already feel strongly that you may be bisexual even before being involved. It can help you avoid labelling yourself yet being open to the experience. Anyway, so glad that you found us here, and I look forward to seeing you around. Peace be with you! Vanessa :love: :love:
08-22-2006, 09:47 AM
It sounds like you are well on your way to understanding more about yourself in this area, and on an organized basis, than many of us in earlier generations ever had the opportunity to. I want to say take your time and be patient, but of course when a person is young and they see something that looks like a good thing, we all kinda just rush in, the first few times. When Zerbie discovers your post, she will undoubtedly just rush right in and smother you with positive energy and good advice :weee: :lol: :agree: :rainbow: :weee: :smashy: :magic: :running: :agree: :applause:
I wish that every young person in our world had your foresight, and your opportunities.
Peace and Love, BruceChris
08-22-2006, 10:03 AM
Welcome Meredyth! :D
The very best thing you can do for yourself with regard to this is continue to be patient, philosophical, and open to what life brings your way. For some of us, sexuailty is so fluid, it's nonsensical to place a label on it and then try to conform to the label. When I was 20 ish, EVERYONE I met in the gay community told me don't be in a hurry to label youself.
Somehow, I felt sort of, well, obligated to have an "answer" to the sexual orientation question. My "sexual orientation" was like a weather vane, it pointed in a different direction all the time, sometimes by the hour. I recently re-read an old diary from when I was 21 in which one entry read- I Kid You Not: "I'm back to seeing myself as straight. Of course I'm heterosexual. I've always been heterosexual. Earlier today I passed someone who was wearing patchouly, and I realized I'm still passionately in love with (name of girl who wore patchouly.) Even now, she's all I can think of. Last night I dreamed she came back to me and we stood outside kissing passionately, and I didn't care who saw us." Yep, I wrote that. :rolleyes:
So - how on earth I was capable of seeing myself as totally straight WHILE in the NEXT sentence writing I was in love with a girl, is beyond me. In hindsight, of course, I wish I would have listened to those people who told me not to try to fit a label. :lol:
Tell ya this. When you meet someone who sweeps you utterly off your feet, you will know all you need to know. That THIS is the person you love. That's really the only answer. The rest is philosophy. :cool:
08-22-2006, 10:17 AM
I hope you can find the support you need here,
I find studying other religions helps me understand the nature of God better than just one, but to each their own.
The divine within me, blesses and honors the divine within you.
08-22-2006, 10:24 AM
Best said, as only Zerbie can say it! She is a wise woman, Meredyth- listen close to her, and good luck in your journey! :) :love:
08-22-2006, 04:41 PM
It's true... Zerbie I think is one who will continue to bless every one of us... listen to her:love:
08-22-2006, 06:59 PM
A very warm welcome to you! SF forums is a great place and you'll find much support and encouragement, insight and discussion, joy and solace. Oh yeah, and food for thought! I hope you enjoy it here, and am looking forward to reading your posts! Glad you are here! :D :rainbow: :sing: :applause:
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