What I've been doing

[Britt.]

I haven't had that much time to post or reply. Mostly work & such. 5 month old relationship w/ my bf. I don't maintain many relationships in my life, or really want to, so it's an ongoing adjustment. I tend to sit around & read, which is how I know what's going on in the world in general.

As none of you probably know, I was diagnosed bipolar a long time ago. Symbyax seems to work, but I hadn't taken it since like 3 or 4 cities ago (Los Angeles maybe, but I'm guessing). It's easy to start forgetting if it works. My bf & I had a fight Friday night, fueled to an extent by alcohol. Had a little breakdown. One thing led to another. Ended up seeing a doctor, telling her what pills worked, & definitely not to prescribe zoloft (so did not work a few years ago). Have more Symbyax, & a referal to a more long term doctor, who I see Wednesday.

I went to the lake w/ my dad Saturday night, & grilled typical Brazilian stuff. My bf & I made up. Back on the pills that work.

I don't need anything in particular from this post. It's just easier getting things out w/ people I don't know than people I do know. Less pressure.

[suzer1013]

Hi Britt! I haven't been posting here much lately, but I saw this and just had to send you some *hugs* and some *love*. :love: :love: :love:

Hang in there, ok?

Susan :pray: :love:

[Dash]

Sweet Britt!:love: I'm sorry for the trouble, and proud of your strength to fight through. Somehow, I've always sensed that strength in you. I haven't been around too much in recent weeks myself. I've missed being here. I enjoy seeing you on this forum and reading your words, and I take great comfort that there are angels like you in Oklahoma. God knows that state needs 'em. :good: :flower:

[Zerbie]

Why hello! Count me among the many of us one-time regulars who hasn't been reading or posting too thoroughly lately (all for good, but very hectic, reasons!)

Like Dash says, I too am proud of your courage and persistence to keep on moving forward and making life better. That makes ALL the difference. If you never give up, things will get better. Because nothing ELSE can happen.

I'm glad things sorted out over the weekend. Do what you know you need to do to take care of yourself. :love: :pray: :love:

[Vanessa White]

Hey Brit: Also wanted to send some love, prayer and encouragement your way. I can identify with having personal struggles, and trying to assess what works to address it and what doesn't. It sounds like you are trying to have some balance in your life, and still trying to sort out what that actually means. Peace to you throughout your journey. You do have many here who support you through any of it. Peace and love, Vanessa :love: :love: :love: :love: :pray: :pray: :pray: :pray:

[BruceChris]

Somehow, it always seems to be terribly embarrassing to not have your act together, (or my act, for that matter), and to have some conflict or dissonance in your life more often than you would like to admit. It happens to most of us, and it is more obvious when you're young.

It is nice (and down right human, for that matter), to be able to admit it now and then, and ask for help. Britt, you are not only an out gay person, you are now an out (and obviously imperfect) human being.

There are some people in this world who never have or show any problems. They are in denial, and/or incredibly repressed. They are already emotionally dead, and probably will soon be so physically. You don't want to go there.

Do your best to treat other people with love and honesty, and know when to ask someone for help. It's really,really nice to have friends/support systems in your life. (Hey, let me tell you about some of my colossal screw-ups, if you've got a few weeks to listen.)

Peace and Love, Bruce Chris

P.S., I'm a loner, and a bookworm, too, but I have found a wonderfull GLBT church. It's absolutely top-heavy with overeducated human service professionals.

[Jennifer5]

I keep thinking about what the best way to respond to this would be.... and I came to....


(((hugs))) :love: We all Love you Britt.!!!! :love: (((hugs)))

No matter what, consider us family... and families stick together...

[tdogg]

Hugs, love and prayers are coming your way.

((((((:love: :love: :pray: :love: :love: :pray: :love: :love: :pray: :love: ))))))