Gary A.
11-30-2006, 01:41 PM
In way of introduction, I am a 52 year old separated male with two children. I was borned and raised in northern Ohio, but I have lived in many places throughout the U.S., the Philippines and Central Africa where my wife and I were missionaries for 6 years.
I was definitely born gay, but because of the turmoil caused by my conservative church upbringing/desire to obey and serve God I missed out on God's grace He had for me so much of my life.
My young life was, to say the least, difficult. My mother and father divorced when I was three. My Mom and I went to live with her parents/my grandparents. I don't really remember having much of a relationship with my grandfather who was a farmer. I was much too young to be around the farm equipment. He died when I was twelve. The farm was very run down, and we were poor.
The feeling of rejection started very early in my life, and it is probably my biggist struggle even today. I felt so rejected and so different from my other friends, because they had a dad and I didn't. My peers at school was always kidding me, because I was not like other boys. I felt they rejected me because I was poor, my mother smoked, was over weight and she was not a socialite like other ladies in our town.
There is so much more, but I will stop there for now. I am so glad that I have a forum, and a place where I can air my feelings. . . . Thank you
I was definitely born gay, but because of the turmoil caused by my conservative church upbringing/desire to obey and serve God I missed out on God's grace He had for me so much of my life.
My young life was, to say the least, difficult. My mother and father divorced when I was three. My Mom and I went to live with her parents/my grandparents. I don't really remember having much of a relationship with my grandfather who was a farmer. I was much too young to be around the farm equipment. He died when I was twelve. The farm was very run down, and we were poor.
The feeling of rejection started very early in my life, and it is probably my biggist struggle even today. I felt so rejected and so different from my other friends, because they had a dad and I didn't. My peers at school was always kidding me, because I was not like other boys. I felt they rejected me because I was poor, my mother smoked, was over weight and she was not a socialite like other ladies in our town.
There is so much more, but I will stop there for now. I am so glad that I have a forum, and a place where I can air my feelings. . . . Thank you