i need to now be here (WA) right now

[Jennifer5]

Ever feel like you want to just want to run away... not physically per-say, but mentally.

Dad, even though not involved in my life, is making life complete hell... and he causes problems for me that gets my mom mad at me, and then my sister mad at me because I'm upset and not so nice to her...:o :(

[tpdncr4christ]

see? this is exactly what I was talking about... We need a magical map. Something that lets us just fold away distances between us, so we can walk next door and give each other hugs... your in my prayers darling.:love:

[Jennifer5]

see? this is exactly what I was talking about... We need a magical map. Something that lets us just fold away distances between us, so we can walk next door and give each other hugs... your in my prayers darling.:love:
wish we could :love: ..how is it that you seem to always make feel at least a little bit better? ...who knows, if things are going to badly, there's a good chance we'll end up in CA again... there would at least be one good thing about that :rolleyes: ..hopefully this will blow over soon and my mom will realize I didn't do anything wrong and things will be ok again

thanks Austin :love:

[Zerbie]

(((((( Jennifer ))))))

Sorry to hear things are so messy.

Hugs. :love: :love: :love:

[tdogg]

Hugs from me too Jen:

{{{{{:love: :love: :love: }}}}}

Take care of yourself. You are a bright, wonderful, special person and in her heart, your mom knows that. She's likely just reacting to her own issues involving your dad (or not). Hang in there! :rolleyes:

And, if you so happen to end up back in California, well I'm here too so maybe I can give you a Soulforce hug in person! :rainbow:

Anyways, things will look up soon Jen. Keep smilin'.:)

[Vanessa White]

Family issues are just that-messy and complicated. It is hard to try to feel loyal to opposing family forces at the same time, because someone always seems to get mad, or feel hurt or betrayed. Be true to your feelings and your family will come around. You have had a good balance about this whole situation, but you are allowed to have your feelings get mucky from time to time. Be kind to yourself and I am sending you bunches of hugs and love. Peace to you, Jen. Vanessa :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love:

[Jennifer5]

Things are actually much better today... my mom realized last night that she was wrong about what she had said, asked me to please forgive her because my sister and I are her life, and she doesn't ever want anything to hurt the relationship that we have with her.

Knowing very well that she means every word, I instantly forgave her, I sill didn't feel quite right about what had happened... but I went ahead and made sure this won't happen again, at least on this topic. I understand that this is just what happens when things go wrong and she gets scared like this... but I just don't like that it tends to land on me each time, all because I was trying to help and attempting to take my share of the responsibility. :rolleyes:

But, either way, I knew this would pass very quickly, after one completely horrible day yesterday... and I think all is well again, my mom would never mean to hurt any of her children.... and I really admire that she realized she was wrong and apologized, it made all the difference, making her very easy to forgive.:love:

[Vanessa White]

I am glad for you, glad that she is the kind of person that does come around, and that she appreciates you and her sister. It is so hard when we get hurt by those that we love so deeply, and I think what gets me through those tough times is that the person that I love so much is only doing the best they can at any given time, as we all are. Sometimes that is imperfect and even hurtful. It always feels better to me when the person acknowledges it, though, and apologizes or makes amends. I am so glad that things are better today. :love: