Pressing On

[amy]

Ever since my girlfriend talked to a guy at the Oklahomans for Equality (OkEq) who said that there is a bigger gay population in Oklahoma than people think, they are just closeted...my confidence in my sexuality has sky rocketed. I feel so different and more understanding of other homosexuals. I've realized that I'm not alone.
I'm sick of these feelings of hiding and I've only had them for a year or so!! I can't imagine having them for my whole life; therefore, I am determined to make the path easier for others to come out! It's suffocating in the closet! I've realized that, in myself, the fears of what people will think or do maybe more in my mind than in reality. The mind can be a very frightening thing if not kept under control. The mind can keep people closeted their whole lives or in denial, as in my case.
I'm tired of denying things that are real! The reality is many homosexuals don't feel safe to come out. I want to make a safe place for them, even if it is just in my presence, I never want gay, lesbians, bisexuals, transsexual, transgender, etc. to feel judged when around me.
I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid to make gay art. (I don't remember if I posted about me being an artist here or at my yahoo blog, anyways you can check it out on my homepage if you want) I'm an artist who is in a painting class and a sculpture class...well actually it is ceramics but I sculpt figures. This semester I've had the strongest desire to make art about homosexuals. To make a long story short...it has been a STRUGGLE!!! Not only with classmates, teachers, but also with my mind! But knowing that my art with help heal myself and hopefully others, I press on.
Amy

[Zerbie]

a guy at the Oklahomans for Equality (OkEq) who said that there is a bigger gay population in Oklahoma than people think, they are just closeted...my confidence in my sexuality has sky rocketed. I feel so different and more understanding of other homosexuals. I've realized that I'm not alone.

:love: You are certainly NOT alone! There are many other people who are struggling or scared about their sexuality. I'm glad you don't feel so isolated any more. :)


I am determined to make the path easier for others to come out! It's suffocating in the closet! I've realized that, in myself, the fears of what people will think or do maybe more in my mind than in reality. The mind can be a very frightening thing if not kept under control. The mind can keep people closeted their whole lives or in denial, as in my case.
I'm tired of denying things that are real! The reality is many homosexuals don't feel safe to come out. I want to make a safe place for them, even if it is just in my presence, I never want gay, lesbians, bisexuals, transsexual, transgender, etc. to feel judged when around me.

That's beautiful. :love: :dove:
Wanting to be a safe space for the rest of the community is the biggest part of becoming that safe supportive person.

I'm not afraid anymore. I'm not afraid to make gay art. (I don't remember if I posted about me being an artist here or at my yahoo blog, anyways you can check it out on my homepage if you want) I'm an artist who is in a painting class and a sculpture class...well actually it is ceramics but I sculpt figures. This semester I've had the strongest desire to make art about homosexuals. To make a long story short...it has been a STRUGGLE!!! Not only with classmates, teachers, but also with my mind! But knowing that my art with help heal myself and hopefully others, I press on.
Amy

Wow - you sound really uplifted!! Congrats on your wonderful ambitions!

Even so, be gentle with yourself and go slowly. I think it will still be a gradual and step-by-step process of coming out more about who you are/your self-expression. Take one step at a time as it feels right. It can be so exhilerating! :D I'm glad to see you sounding so upbeat and confident. Take it a step at a time, and come back here to let us know about your successes, or if you want some shoulders to cry on when things aren't feeling so bright.

:rainbow: :tup: :agree:

[scorpiogirl]

I'm happy for you!

:love: :love: :love: :love: :love:

[belladonnacordial]

One of the most important lessons we can learn is to be who we are, not who anyone wants us to be, not who we think we should be, but exactly and perfectly us. There is no better recipe for creating joy for ourselves and for every other life that we touch. Your freedom will have repercussions, for all who see you will wonder what it is like to soar. Because of you they will know the weakness of cages and the strength of their own wings. So proud of you! Love, Donna

[BruceChris]

Hey, I think that both of you are wonderful, attractive, (can I get away with sexy?) young lesbians. If I were a 20 something young woman, I would definitely want both of you in my "in" group. Or I'd join yours. (But maybe not in Oklahoma) I believe that God wants us, and you, to celebrate our love, our lives, and our joy.

When we love others as ourselves, it means that we have to learn to love others, but it also means that we have to learn to love, respect, and understand ourselves.

Peace and Love, Bruce Chris

[amy]

Thank you BruceChris!! What a complement. I don't think that has ever been said about either of us. I really needed to hear something encouraging today. It is very lonely here in Oklahoma...but that is going to change because we've already decided to move to California after we graduate.

[marutidas]

Some time the best way to deal with your pain, is to help others with theirs. I am glad to hear you have group you canbe open with and I am also glad to hear that you and your partner are getting along well again.

Beauty, has many form, most of them impermanent and changing as the season, the true lasting beauty is compassion, unhindered.

Every time I come here I see move of that beauty grow, I smile inwardly, because the world seems a little less dark.

with closed palms, I bow to the divinty with in you.

~~~Maruti Das:flower::dove: