My name's Liza... obviously.

[Liza]

Hey! I'm 19 years old, and I was actually referred here by sydfinkle. :D

I am a lesbian. I recently came out, actually. It's kind of sad... I thought I was bisexual for the LONGEST time. I dated a girl, fell in love with her, and realized that what I had with her I'd never experienced with a man, and probably never would. And it scared the hell out of me. I broke up with her and got married to a man as quickly as I possibly could, in hopes that I could make myself be straight... make myself be "normal". It was the biggest mistake I've ever made, and ever could make, really. I broke his heart because I couldn't love him the way he wanted me to, I broke her heart by "moving on", and I broke my own heart by denying myself the happiness that was right there in front of me. And it all ended badly. I broke it off with him for personal reasons (besides the fact that I was in DENIAL that I was a lesbian), but by the time I realized that I was in love with the girl, she'd already moved on. It's my biggest regret. Anyway, yeah... I'm "out", now. Yay!

I'm also a Christian, which is kind of hard here in the Bible Belt (I live in Nashville, by the way). Christians and non-Christians alike ask me how on earth can I justify being a lesbian and a Christian at the same time, and I honestly can't. Not in words, anyway. I'm usually really good at expressing myself, but in this instance I can't. I was raised in a strict Christian household, and was force fed bullcrap about how all homosexuals were going to hell (I guess they could tell I was a lesbian even back then, haha), and it took me a LONG time to get over that. I went through periods where I hated God, and other periods where I really hated myself and wanted to die. And now I'm just... at peace about everything. I know I'm not going to hell, despite what anyone might say, but I can't say why I'm sure of that, you know? I just am.

Aaaanyway, yeah! That's about it. :lol:

[Zerbie]

Hi Liza,

You and your friend Syd sound like really fun people!

My response to your autobiography so far is: you did ALL THAT by the age of 19????

Wow! What a journey!!!!

It sounds like you're in a really good place now, which is terrific. Yay. :D

And you sound a little bit the opposite of me: I thought I was lesbian for the longest time. Then suddenly in my late 20s BLAM!! Fell really hard for a man. :o I was like, "Oh. Oops." :p Now I'm very happily married and it's the best thing ever. I was lukewarm about marriage equality until I got married (to someone I really wanted to be married to, that's important), and then once I found out how wonderful it is, I want every couple to have the same choices and the same opportunity.

Well anyway, all I meant to say was "welcome."

:p :cool:

[u-dog]

Welcome Liza!

No one here has any question about the possibility of being gay and being Christian. If you love Women and you are a woman... then you are a Lesbian. If you are a human being and you Love Jesus... then you are a Christian. What do the two have to do with each other?

Jump into the conversation and be welcome

Dave

[scott snedeker]

This place is full of loving gay christians.

I'm one of the pagans btw.

Unconditional love is an interfaith touchstone.

So if you are connected with unconditional love of self and others you can be gay and....anything without effort or conflict.

[nmwolfboy]

Welcome to Soulforce, Liza! :wave:

I know I'm not going to hell, despite what anyone might say, but I can't say why I'm sure of that, you know? I just am.


As am i. i know just what you mean. Though it wasn't always like this, i now give thanks to God every day for the gift of being gay!

Pax,

scott

[BruceChris]

Like Syd, and Zerbie, and many more. Read, post, join the gang. - NICE picture.

In the 15th century, every churchman alive knew two things. That the Sun revolved around the Earth, and that it said so in the Bible.

I believe that God loves us, and that our sexuality is a wonderful mystery, and a gift from Her/Him.

Peace and Love, Bruce Chris

[keltic63]

This place is full of loving gay christians.

I'm one of the pagans btw.

Unconditional love is an interfaith touchstone.

So if you are connected with unconditional love of self and others you can be gay and....anything without effort or conflict.

and we love you for that!

welcome to the forums Liza!

[WillySF]

And there are some loving gay agnostics!

Welcome Liza,

You sound like you've figured out a lot at a young age. The important thing is that you love yourself first of all by accepting who you are, and then find others to share that love. I hope you find all the support you need and that this forum will be part of that.

[tdogg]

Welcome to SF Liza!!

Wow, what a life story so far, and at such a young age. Congrats on coming out by the way. How can you be a lesbian and Christian? Well, I say stop listening to those who tell you otherwise, and start listening to your own heart and what God has to say to YOU - LIZA, not what others profess to say on God's behalf.

Only your God knows your heart, your dreams, your desires, your deepest needs. Listen to your heart, that's where God will talk to you. Instead of asking how you can be gay and Christian, ask how not, why not? It truly makes more sense to embrace and celebrate the you that God created, rather than condemn and abhor it.

Amazing so far - welcome again, looking forward to getting to know you better!

Tdogg

[Lydia]

Welcome to the group, Liza. :)

And Zerbie, you really need to write a book. This:



I thought I was lesbian for the longest time. Then suddenly in my late 20s BLAM!! Fell really hard for a man. :o I was like, "Oh. Oops."
:p :cool:

was hilarious. :)

[sydfinkle]

YAY! It's Lizaface. (We met each other on a Christian messageboard...) I'll not get into the things that go on there.. :disagree: But yeah..

Liza is pretty stinking awesome! (I am NOT a butthead you big meanie)..

<3