Hey My name is Matt~

[Muithoven]

Hey my name is Matt (or Mattie) as my friends call me lol:) I currently live in Sioux Falls SD and have been with my partner for almost 2 years now, who, incidently is the one who showed me an article from soulforce.

Lets see...I am currently 20 years old...graduated from highschool early in 2005 with an honors and as an AP scholor. I had grown up in church with my family for pretty much my whole life. As a sophomore in highschool I had already became a youth leader for our youth group and then began playing keyboard on the worship team. When I was sixteen I came out to my parents and was immediatley put into counseling with the pastor. Not only that, I was still allowed to attend church but could no longer play keyboard or be a leader in my youth church, which hurt me deeply. After this, I began hiding again, saying I had changed had been made "straight" however, I knew that was not the case. In order to hide who I was I threw myself into my schoolwork in order to graduate early and move on with my life. When I was a freshman I had been prophesied over that I would be a "mighty man of God known throughout the nations" and that "I would cry out and my God would answer." Although the first one has not come to pass the second one has!

After graduating early I was on my way to Florida state Universtity, mostly to get as far away from some of the painfull memories of South Dakota. I had an awesome roommate but did not know how to act, In my head I thought what I was doing was wrong, a vile disgusting thing, and that I would never be blessed as much as my parents. I began working full time and was still a fulltime student. After a few months in Florida I became very depressed, honestly believing I was a horrible person. I dont remember when it was exactly but I cried out to God one night and then went to school and work like nothing had happened. That day one of my friends invited me to church with her, I was warry of going as I had been hurt at church before, but she said there was someone i needed to meet. She introduced me to her roommate who happened to be the worship leader, who later became my best friend. He helped me through so much and had told me many of the things I have read in soulforce articles which continues to amaze me.

since then I have taken a break from school and do hope to go back, just not for sure yet. And have found someone that makes me happy and has lasted 2 years. I am also happy that I have a great job in which I was promoted after only 1 month of employement, I am a 20 year old in a salaried position, being blessed with not only finances but a great group of friends. I am happy that God loves me and has blessed me and have finally accepted myself as I know the heavenly father does. So thats' me in a nutshell or rather long biography lol....(sorry my english major likes to come out haha).....

~Mattie~

[BrentRichards]

Welcome Mattie ... and thank you for your story. You'll find some common experiences with others here. That "mighty man of God" prophecy isn't void yet, kiddo ... you have a voice to be heard and an important story to tell! Welcome. We look forward to getting to know you.

[Daniel]

Mattie,

Welcome to Soulforce! It makes me glad to know that the message getting out there and you have found your way here.

Your story breaks my heart and also gives me hope. I remember what it was like to cry out to God for help- and to be answered. That is a blessed thing.

It's great that you are making a life for yourself and have a partner! And it sounds like things are looking up for you. I've been with the same wonderful man for 15 years and can tell you, long lived love is possible.

Please consider going back to school. Nudge. Nudge. The longer one waits to do so, the harder it becomes. That's my 2 cents. :D

Hope to see you around the place.

[scott snedeker]

Wow! what a story!

I wish that I had that much courage! at your age!

God created you gay so that you could experience joy by living true to your nature. He apparently created another Gay fellow to love you because you needed someone to see the shining soul that you are. So that you could see your shining soul yourself and love yourself as much as God does, unconditionally.

Btw, we love English majors!

[mjules]

Hi, Mattie!

I used to live in Tallahassee a long time ago. Oddly enough, it was where I first found out that I was bi. *laugh* I have a bit of a similar background to yours - My dad was a pastor for a while, if that tells you anything.

I also took a break from college, and it took me six years to go back, but I AM going back this fall. And I'm an English major, too. :)

It's nice to meet you, and I hope you enjoy being here!

:love:

[Zerbie]

Hi Mattie,

Welcome to the forum. :)

I'm glad things are looking up for you. Somewhat seconding Daniel, though - going to school might still be a good idea. Maybe there's a good college or university nearby and you could go in the evenings, and keep that salaried position while you go. All kinds of things will be possible for you.

[tymejumper]

Hey my name is Matt (or Mattie) as my friends call me lol:) I currently live in Sioux Falls SD and have been with my partner for almost 2 years now, who, incidently is the one who showed me an article from soulforce.

Lets see...I am currently 20 years old...graduated from highschool early in 2005 with an honors and as an AP scholor. I had grown up in church with my family for pretty much my whole life. As a sophomore in highschool I had already became a youth leader for our youth group and then began playing keyboard on the worship team. When I was sixteen I came out to my parents and was immediatley put into counseling with the pastor. Not only that, I was still allowed to attend church but could no longer play keyboard or be a leader in my youth church, which hurt me deeply. After this, I began hiding again, saying I had changed had been made "straight" however, I knew that was not the case. In order to hide who I was I threw myself into my schoolwork in order to graduate early and move on with my life. When I was a freshman I had been prophesied over that I would be a "mighty man of God known throughout the nations" and that "I would cry out and my God would answer." Although the first one has not come to pass the second one has!

After graduating early I was on my way to Florida state Universtity, mostly to get as far away from some of the painfull memories of South Dakota. I had an awesome roommate but did not know how to act, In my head I thought what I was doing was wrong, a vile disgusting thing, and that I would never be blessed as much as my parents. I began working full time and was still a fulltime student. After a few months in Florida I became very depressed, honestly believing I was a horrible person. I dont remember when it was exactly but I cried out to God one night and then went to school and work like nothing had happened. That day one of my friends invited me to church with her, I was warry of going as I had been hurt at church before, but she said there was someone i needed to meet. She introduced me to her roommate who happened to be the worship leader, who later became my best friend. He helped me through so much and had told me many of the things I have read in soulforce articles which continues to amaze me.

since then I have taken a break from school and do hope to go back, just not for sure yet. And have found someone that makes me happy and has lasted 2 years. I am also happy that I have a great job in which I was promoted after only 1 month of employement, I am a 20 year old in a salaried position, being blessed with not only finances but a great group of friends. I am happy that God loves me and has blessed me and have finally accepted myself as I know the heavenly father does. So thats' me in a nutshell or rather long biography lol....(sorry my english major likes to come out haha).....

~Mattie~

Welcome Mattie! I am glad to meet you. When you asked for guidance from God, he heard you and answered you by giving you a great support group. Long biographys are a GOOD thing~!

Rebekah

[u-dog]

Welcome Mattie ... and thank you for your story. You'll find some common experiences with others here. That "mighty man of God" prophecy isn't void yet, kiddo ... you have a voice to be heard and an important story to tell! Welcome. We look forward to getting to know you.


Yah Mattie, I'm with Brent on this one. I would definately NOT bet against the whole "mighty man of God thing" and we'll be able to say "we knew him when" Welcome to the Soulforce forums! Jump in and join the conversations.

God does love you and I am so happy that you feel that reality so powerfully.

[scott snedeker]

God does love you and I am so happy that you feel that reality so powerfully.

I'm gonna steal that one!

[u-dog]

I'm gonna steal that one!

Be my guest! I've stolen plenty of material from you!

[keltic63]

no one thought of this yet????














welcome mat(t)

[d_pedr]

I had been prophesied over that I would be a "mighty man of God known throughout the nations" and that "I would cry out and my God would answer." Although the first one has not come to pass the second one has!
.....

~Mattie~

Mattie

may God continue to bless you as he already has.

Pray about the "mighty man of God known throughout the nations" prophesy, with your partner too (if he will) - even if he doesn't believe yet, he needs to be in on what God's planning for you.

Trust God - push those doors - study if that's the way God leads to towards fulfilling the prophesy. The only way it wouldn't come true is if you walk away from it. So Trust God and he will lead you.

welcome and God bless you both

love and hugs

[Muithoven]

Thanks everyone for welcoming with open arms :) look forward to joining more and more forums :)

Matti!

[antonyh]

Thank you for sharing your amazing story. I'm in awe. I'm so glad you have someone to love.

[BrentRichards]

no one thought of this yet????














welcome mat(t)


Ba-dum-ching!

[progressive4christ]

Welcome!!! I love your story. I noticed you mentioned being prophesied over; you must of came from a Assemblies or some pentecostal church. I believe in that; it happened to me. That is one form of proof that Gods loves and excepts gay people; so you would think. Prophecies usuals comes from right winger churches and they are usually the ones that are anti gay. So, my point is to a person who is anti- gay should take that in consideration and it does not matter if you were in the closet at the time to the people; for God knew and that is all that counts. ooh this excites me so!
:love:

[BrentRichards]

it does not matter if you were in the closet at the time to the people; for God knew and that is all that counts.

Thank you! I have said something similar to people: God knew when He called me ... and now you think he was wrong?