An introduction

[LordShepard]

Hello. My name is Nick. I am a stone butch from Southern Oregon. Stone butch? I don't know. All the titles confuse me and that's the closest one. Kind of transgendered, but have no interest in changing my gender. Most people who see me think I am a guy. Most people who know me say I am basically a guy.

I prefer the Native American view of the 'walker between two worlds'. I am neither male nor female. I am somewhere in between. I like it there.

I have been a fan of Mel White for a couple of years. His words affirmed what the Holy Spirit was telling me.

I have been Christian all of my life and spent a lot of time trying to repress and conquer my homosexuality. I prayed for release from that 'cross I was to bear' for many, many years.

Then one day I fell to my knees and begged God to show me His truth. I had been reading pro-gay Christian material and was even more confused about what God wanted then I had ever been. I told Him I would accept anything He wanted from me. I begged for guidance to His ultimate truth.

He answered. The Spirit took hold of me and I literally spent months having visions and dreams. At one point I was awake for seven days in a trance guided by the Holy Spirit. His truth concerning homosexuals was revealed to me.

It was shortly after that when I came across Mel White's book, Stranger at The Gate. I saw a kindred soul in there and have yearned to meet him ever since. One day I will.

I am honored to join Soulforce and am looking forward to meeting other gay Christians. There aren't very many around here. Most of the gay community in Southern Oregon are Pagan and have a very (understandably) negative view towards Christians. I keep running into conversations with locals that view my faith as confusion. They think I am stunted in my spiritual growth because I cling to the name of Christ. They think of Christianity as a backward, archaic religion. I feel isolated in my faith.

I am here to make friends, have discussions, and join the movement toward change in the Christian heart of America and the world.

I think I have talked enough now. Drop me a line, let’s be friends.

[u-dog]

Welcome Nick! There are a number of Gay Christians here (as well as a number of Pagans who won't tell you that your faith is "backward") Hope you find the forums helpful

[Emproph]

Hey Nick,

I consider myself a heterosexual girl with a guy's body, but that's a mouthful, and transgender isn't quite right because I have no desire to look act or become feminine/female. I'm in label limbo too. Not just gender-wise, but spiritual-wise too. I basically consider myself a Christian Pantheist -- which in some circles, if not most, would be considered oxymoronic.

Welcome to Soulforce, :rainbow:

-Patrick

[Zerbie]

Wow - fascinating story of your spiritual journey!!!

Welcome! :)

Add me to the label-limbo list. I guess I'm technically bisexual but where I perceive myself to be along the sexual orientation grid changes all the time.
:rolleyes:

[progressive4christ]

Welcome Nick!!! Wow! you had a wonderful experience with God. I am so happy to hear stories like that because it shows God is a powerful form of love. I wish straight people would hear more stories like that. i think Christan GLBT people should get to gather and put these kind of experiences with God in a book for people to read, so they can see God truly loves His little rainbows just they way they are. Not most straight people have such a holy spirit experience like that.

[Jennifer5]

Welcome Nick! Glad to have you hear!

Your life sounds fascinating... I think you'll find a lot of great people here, and end up feeling like these are the friends and family that you always felt were missing..

I think most anyone you'll find on this site would say they're doin' the limbo thing when it comes to either faith or sexuality... we're all a bit odd... we all seem to like it that way... welcome to the group :love:

[u-dog]

I WOULD do the whole sexual identity limbo thing... but its HELL on my back! ;) Could we just form a conga line instead? Or do the Macarana? or the Chicken dance?

[scott snedeker]

I'm one of the pagans on the site.

I also embrace the Teachings of Christ, Something I fear many "christians" fail to do.

Welcome

[matthewspeed]

I am honored to join Soulforce and am looking forward to meeting other gay Christians. There aren't very many around here. Most of the gay community in Southern Oregon are Pagan and have a very (understandably) negative view towards Christians. I keep running into conversations with locals that view my faith as confusion. They think I am stunted in my spiritual growth because I cling to the name of Christ. They think of Christianity as a backward, archaic religion. I feel isolated in my faith.

Nick,

I understand about being totally gay and totally christian. Some in the gay community see that as an oxymoron. Christianity is not an archaic, stale religion as some see it. It is a powerful moving relationship with the living God. Many followers have given christianity a bad name, but that does not change the fact that it is a true, awsome religion. I would love to be your friend.

-Matthew :)

[nmwolfboy]

Nick,

You've been here almost a year and here i am, just now saying "welcome" and "nice to meet you!" :eek: My mother would be appalled at my bad manners.

Thanks for opening up and sharing your witness in such an up-front way.

i'm a gay Christian, too, though i was Neo-pagan for 20+ years after i first came out of the closet. Took me a while to get back to my spiritual roots in Christianity.

Once again, welcome, thanks for such a great introduction, and sorry it's taken me so long to say "Hi!" :wave:

Pax, :dove:
scott

[Gennee]

Welcome to Soulforce, Nick. I love your introduction and it speas to me personally. I am transgender and will not have reassignment surgery. I am part Native American (Choctaw) which leads me to believe that I may be two spirit. I have been a born again Christian for over 30 years. I realized that I was transgender only 3 years ago. After several weeks of denial, I embraced by transgender identity with my faith. I have been with peace ever since.

Nick, I'm so happy that God has spoken to you. Just this past Tuesday I encouraged a young lesbian woman to be proud of who she is. I'm so happy that you found the site and hope you will post often.

Gennee :love::love:

[tymejumper]

Welcome. Yes those lables are confusing. I have decided my self that 'blue jean femme' fits me pretty darn well but if it does not in the future, I will just have to make my own up! I kinda make it up as I go anyhow!:lol: (My wife tells me she is 'soft butch' but she cries when her nails break, go figure!)

You will find lots of Christains, Pagans, Buddists and other various religious persons here but we won't bash on you. We may have heated discussions over topics, but it's all for the higher purpose of understanding.

[Vanessa White]

I am also a year behind, but great to have you here on the forums. I am fascinated and encouraged by the journey that you have made so far. As with so many here, the journey takes great courage, self-love and determination. Sounds like you have a lot of each.

If I were to pick my favorite label for myself, I am DEFINITELY a lipstick lesbian; literally! I love to dress up my lips and wear skirts often!! Glad that you are here.....Peace, Vanessa :love:

[tdogg]

Welcome Nick! Hope you are still around?? Anyways, labels are for those who would put people in neat little boxes all taped up and ready to go.
You don't sound like one who would live in a box - those of us here aren't. So, you've come to the right place! You don't need a label, just savor your life's journey and share it on the way with friends and loved ones!

Hope you are here and sharing, I'll have to look out for more recent posts (as I catch up on "OLD" introductions). :o;):D:love:

Tdogg