Good bye everyone

[sjbouza]

I am saying good bye to everyone here at Soul Force. It has been fun...really it has. However, I....things are just not going good right at the moment and I need to really concentrate on those things.

My boyfriend of two years is having doubts and I dont know whether we are going to be together past this week. I pray to God that we are. The truth is I just dont have time anymore for everything. I have to cut the things out of my life that arent as important as other things are. Please dont take that the wrong way. I love you guys...but I love him more.

The new music store is taking a ton of my time and I have to try to go back to the restaurant Monday. It is going to be...I just need to have some time.

Take care one and all.

Peace and love,
Scott

[Dash]

:pray: Hope everything works out with your boyfriend! I'll miss seeing your little dragon roaring over there!

Come back after awhile, maybe.... But in the meantime, take care.

:love:

[Zerbie]

Dear Scott,

I'm sorry to hear about the difficulties. That really sucks. :(

I hope all works out well with both your professional life and your relationship. Come on back whenever you wish - we love you too.

[elcharrom]

Good luck man, I dont know you and you dont know me but I wish you the best of Gods love and help :pray:

[andrewlittle]

And remember - this isn't all or nothing. You can be gone for however long you need to be, but at any point in the future you can return and say, "Hi".

In the meantime, fare thee well.

[Emproph]

Not sure what this was supposed to mean, but I thought it appropriate.

http://i165.photobucket.com/albums/u52/bsm2002393/Good%20Luck/marathon.jpg

I get it now, we're all with you. http://i164.photobucket.com/albums/u4/t3roar/salute3.gif

[u-dog]

Blessings Scott! You know where we are if you need us! Hope everything works out as it should... as no doubt it is.:love:

[Daniel]

Scott- Many blessings to you and your guy! Your presence will be missed.

[sjbouza]

I want to thank each one of you for all the love that I have felt coming from you all. The pic of the runners drove me to tears, comforting tears. Thank you all so very much.

No it isnt a good bye forever, I just need some time to concentrate on other things right now. My father and I have opened, well he is the $$$$ man but I have been doing the computer work for the store, a music store locally. You can visit our MySpace page if you would like to see pics and such. It is in its development stages but I am working on it as I have time between keeping the "gun" out of my dads mouth because he cant understand the computer system and the 70 eBay auctions I am running.

The Music Station (http://www.myspace.com/tmscad)

Upon that I cut the tip of my finger off at the restaurant so I have had no money coming in for the past couple weeks and they dont seem to want to pay me workmans comp. Then my boyfriend comes out of the blue with doubts about whether he can keep up the long distance relationship. When it rains it pours!!!! His doubts were the straw that broke the camels back so to speak.

I just came to the decision that I need to look at my life and what is important in it. Dont get me wrong you all ar just as important to me. But right now there are things that I have been neglecting and they need my attention. I will return from time to time, when I have the time, and say hey.

On a good note with my bf. Originally he called me Friday night and unloaded all this on me about not thinking he can do the LD relationship anymore. He said he needed time, and I understood and told him to take the time he needed. He said he would try to call me Sunday (today) when he gets home from SC, whether he had made a decision or not. Well, he called me and he has made his decision. He said he cant imagine his life without me.:D:applause::weee::weee: Needless to say I am VERY HAPPY!!! He didnt have much time to talk his plane was leaving, but he is gonna call me again tonight when he gets home so we can talk.

So at least that part of my life is better. Work is another story. They are forcing me to return to work even though they cannot accomidate my medical restrictions. I have cut about 1/2" of my finger tip off to the bone. I have to wear a thick bandage over it as well as a 4 prong cage splint. They say that I can wear a rubber glove over it. This thing is so big I dont think I could get a condom over it. But they want me to squeeze it into a rubber glove. That is going to put pressure on the finger and cause it to bleed again. I will try but I told them if it hurts I will not do it. They may be able accomidate my restrictions, but if that accomidation causes me pain I dont think I should have to endure it just because they dont want to pay me workmans comp. If there are any lawyers out there with some advice for me I would appreciate it. I am considering getting a lawyer anyway. I have a Dr appt on Monday. The adjuster was suppose to fax me a letter for the Dr saying that workmans comp will pay for the Dr visit. I havent seen the letter yet. So if I get to the Dr office on Monday they wont see me I am heading to the lawyers office. The emergency room Dr put on the release paper that I was to see a Dr for follow up. They are denying me medical treatment. Aint happening. I have no problem getting a lawyer. What do they want to do? Pay my medical bills or their lawyers? My lawyer is free until I collect money, so I am out nothing. They will have my medical bills, lawyer fees, plus anything else my lawyer can get. Screw em. Ever since I came out at work they have been gunning for me. I have put up with so much shit this past 6 months. I am done. I have just been bidding my time until I can start making good money at the music shop. You see I only get paid on commission on what I sell on my eBay auctions and stuff that people call in for off of the MySpace site.

So if anyone needs anything that deals with music. Guitars, Amps. PAs, banjos, EXF pedals, speakers, drum sets, ANYTHING. Give us a call. We can order pretty much anything. I dont mean to plug our shop here, but hey I the quicker I start making good enough money the sooner I can get out of the restaurant. Just shoot me a PM and I will give ya the number for the store. Just make sure you let us know that you are calling from the MySpace site or an eBay auction so I can get the credit for the sale.

Peace and love to all. Again, thank you everyone for your love and support!!!!:love::love::love::love:

Scott

PS...
Tell your friends about the store too. The more the better. Thanks everyone!!!!

[antonyh]

I agree with some of what has been said. The forum does not need to be "all or nothing". I'm in a similar situation. I've started a new job and I'm working 55 hour weeks. So my time here at Soulforce is limited. I still like to visit when I can to catch up on the wisdom of people here.

[Assured]

SJBOUZA

We have never had any exchanges on here but my heart sunk for you when you mentioned what you BF said...SOOO GLAD you recieved that redeeming phone call the other day..

OUCH....for the finger and all the stress associated with it...hope it will resolve itself.

I will look at your myspace...i am a singer/songwriter/musician and i will do my best to see if i can help to direct people to your shop via the internet as i am in the UK

[pnggrad79]

SJ,
Glad for the bf, sad for the other mess in your life, glad for the music store opening, sad for your finger. Man, I can imagine the gamut of emotions you are feeling right now. Peace be with you and your bf and I hope that he and you can be together in the same place before long. Love and hugs,man, you need it.:love::love::love::love: