Odd moment

[sailaway58]

I had a rather odd moment today.
I was outside doing yard work and my daughter came out and we sat in the swing talking.
I asked her what she liked about our family and she said, "That I fit in".
At that moment the weight of the last month crashed in on me and I knew that what she has at home all deserve in Christ.
I couldn't stop thinking about a song by John Gorka. It kind of expresses why I feel driven to further this cause that I feel has been placed on my shoulders, I didn't ask for it, it was given to me. This is more than an ego trip it is a,"Hey, I may be past my prime but I can still make a difference" trip.

John Gorka

Am I a fool at this late date
To heed a voice that says,
You can be great

I heard it young, now I hear it again
It says, you can be better than you've ever been

Chorus:
Don't want to waste what I have to give
In all of the time that I've left to live
Don't want to waste what I have to give
In any of the time that I've got left
I can do more than I thought I could
Work brings more luck than knocking on wood
There's random bad and random good
Work brings more good luck

You ask the world
And the world says, no
It's the world's refrain
Mine says, go
You ask the world
And the world says, no
It's an old world refrain
Mine says, go

Chorus:
Don't want to waste what I have to give
In all of the time that I've left to live
Don't want to waste what I have to give
In any of the time that I've got left
I can do more than I thought I could
Work brings more luck than knocking on wood
There's random bad and random good
Work brings more good luck

Better be off
I've got dreams to dream
Though it seems uphill and a little extreme
If I can find hope in this fading light
Then I'll find you on the morningside

[Zerbie]

:)

Wonderful, Sailor.

The past couple days I've been thinking about how so many people in this world are lonely, without emotional support, without a "nest" to go to where they feel loved. Why should that be? What can be done to fix this problem?
Your reaction to your daughter's comment seems right in line with what's been nudging into my head lately. Everyone should have that sense of family and belonging.

[tdogg]

Thats for that Tim.

I haven't seen my father in nearly two months, since my stepmom took him home from the nursing facility. I just have not had the emotional energy to deal with all the crap that goes along with seeing him at home. It was actually much easier to visit him at the nursing facilities and hospital, not that I would want him back there.

There are other family members about whom I feel the same. It's emotionally easier to keep my distance. But it also hurts very much. To never be able to talk about the most important think in my life - my relationship/partner - well, it's very difficult to face head-on for me.

I appreciate your thoughts on this Tim, and that you feel led to do something to address the issues that family can present to GLBTs. It's hard, complicated and emotionally draining. I continue to pray for your ministry in this area! :pray::love::rainbow: