tennis_gal22
01-01-2008, 01:57 PM
Hello, my name is Christi. I am a Junior in high school, but I am very mature for my age. I am very outspoken and nonjudgemental. I accept everyone for who they are on the inside. I have a great outlook on life, as I have had my problems in the past, but they have allowed me to grown up and to be able to see the world in a whole new way. Just a look at my personality. I love peoples personalities.
I am a bit new to this. Not new to GLBT rights though. I have never been against GLBT. I have always believe that people should be who they are. People say that they hate it when others lie or fake who they are so, why shouldnt GLBT people be able to come out! Its makes no sense to me, but I am totally in support.
In fact, I came here looking for support. A little about my past: I grew up with 3 brothers, and all of there friends who practically lived with us. MY best friend was a boy. I always felt at home with them and I was always one of the guys.
Now, I am really struggling because of my feelings. I do think that I am gay, but I want to make sure it is what I truly feel is me. I told a friend the other night that I was gay (I was going to test her, then say, no i am not really, just to see her reaction)...she freaked out. She is a huge Christian who doesnt believe it is right. (I am a Christian but I believe in it!) And I was so angry that she reacted so harshly. But, I got defensive. I was going to tell her I was joking, but something kicked in and I told her I wasnt really sure. She tried to tell me what I should be.
I told her she couldnt understand how I felt. She told me it was right for me to like guys, but I dont feel that I do. I have no interest really. Looking back I notice things that point to my true feelings. When I am with a group of friends I have no interest in talking about guys, or looking at the football players. I dont like purses, dresses, makeup...I am more tomboyish I guess...just not into girl things really.
I do truly believe I am guy...maybe bi...I havent decided, who knows, maybe there is that perfect guy for me...but I dont think so...:(
So, I am struggling right now. I know it is normal to struggle in the beginning because I think it takes time to figure out who I am. I think about it constantly though because I just want to be me...so, I am trying to relax some and let it come to me..so to speak. I think I will know for sure when the time is right.
So, as you can see, I am having a hard time. I dont know any gay girls, but 2, so its hard for me to be in a relationship and see if it is whats right for me. But, I feel it would be, I think!:o But, whether or not I am in a relationship, I want to be who I 'really' am. I have to find/figure out that person.
I know this is long, I have so much going through my mind, but I want to thank you for reading it! Thanks so much! Take care!
I am a bit new to this. Not new to GLBT rights though. I have never been against GLBT. I have always believe that people should be who they are. People say that they hate it when others lie or fake who they are so, why shouldnt GLBT people be able to come out! Its makes no sense to me, but I am totally in support.
In fact, I came here looking for support. A little about my past: I grew up with 3 brothers, and all of there friends who practically lived with us. MY best friend was a boy. I always felt at home with them and I was always one of the guys.
Now, I am really struggling because of my feelings. I do think that I am gay, but I want to make sure it is what I truly feel is me. I told a friend the other night that I was gay (I was going to test her, then say, no i am not really, just to see her reaction)...she freaked out. She is a huge Christian who doesnt believe it is right. (I am a Christian but I believe in it!) And I was so angry that she reacted so harshly. But, I got defensive. I was going to tell her I was joking, but something kicked in and I told her I wasnt really sure. She tried to tell me what I should be.
I told her she couldnt understand how I felt. She told me it was right for me to like guys, but I dont feel that I do. I have no interest really. Looking back I notice things that point to my true feelings. When I am with a group of friends I have no interest in talking about guys, or looking at the football players. I dont like purses, dresses, makeup...I am more tomboyish I guess...just not into girl things really.
I do truly believe I am guy...maybe bi...I havent decided, who knows, maybe there is that perfect guy for me...but I dont think so...:(
So, I am struggling right now. I know it is normal to struggle in the beginning because I think it takes time to figure out who I am. I think about it constantly though because I just want to be me...so, I am trying to relax some and let it come to me..so to speak. I think I will know for sure when the time is right.
So, as you can see, I am having a hard time. I dont know any gay girls, but 2, so its hard for me to be in a relationship and see if it is whats right for me. But, I feel it would be, I think!:o But, whether or not I am in a relationship, I want to be who I 'really' am. I have to find/figure out that person.
I know this is long, I have so much going through my mind, but I want to thank you for reading it! Thanks so much! Take care!