michaelbbussey
01-24-2008, 10:58 AM
My name is Michael Bussey and I am a 24 yo struggling Gay Christian. You see I grew up in small-town Graham, TX where my whole family was born and raised and very active. I was one of those who survived by the church. We attend a local baptist church in Graham and we are even more active at the church. I even surrendered to vocational ministry at the young age of 13. After graduating in May 02 I set off for Abilene, TX where I attended Hardin-Simmons University. I was there for two years and at that time I didn't know about Exodus MCC but I remained a closeted and confused child of God. I finally embraced my orientation, but at the same time I lost my relationship with God believing I had to choose one or the other. So in August 2004 I moved to San Marcos, TX with my short-term lover (he ended up leaving me to be a escort). Even at this time I lived between 2 MCCs but I still never could embrace God and my sexual orientation together in harmony so I never went. My life suddenly changed in June 2005 when my appendix burst and I was rushed back home to Graham, TX. Due to the fact my mother detested my orientation we decided to send me back to HSU "the good baptist school" and try to finish my education. Little did we know that going back to those school grounds would change me forever. You see before I left HSU the last time I came out across the school. This was big gossip because by that time I was Jr. Class President, Editor-in-Chief of the school Newspaper The Brand, manager of the upcoming radio station, and the school representative to the TSSA. Evidentially when I left they even held a special chapel session for my friends to help pray for the salvation of my soul and for redirection in my life. A lot like from the movie Saved. But I went back I was strong. I found Exodus MCC and have been active as long as I lived in Abilene. I got engaged to a man who I was with for over 2 years. But it was not a healthy relationship. I was mentally and emotionally abused into a live of servitude and felt I couldn't leave. So on December 22, 2007 I finally left and went back to Graham, TX or as I like to say "Mayberry in living color". I am trying to leave here in May to move back to either San Marcos or Austin and embrace the calling that God called me to almost 12 years ago. I know I am to be a minister of his life but its a hard concept to embrace when my family doesn't embrace me, my orientation, and least of all my ministry outside the baptist church. Now don't get me wrong God has made me a natural survivor for He saved from cancer 20 years ago and I have never forgotten it. I am also a spokesperson for the Austin Office of the Make-A-Wish foundation.
I want to thank you for your time in reading about my life and I ask if you get time to shoot me an email with some encouragement, and if you know of resources that might help me temporarily get settled in the austin/san marcos area. I'd appreciate it. I have a job and a place to stay till Tax season is over with (I'm a tax preparer for Liberty Tax Services). My strengths are ministry, communication, and computers. My ex bankrupted me before I left so I am starting all over. Thank you so much for your ministry. You have been an inspiration to mine.
I want to thank you for your time in reading about my life and I ask if you get time to shoot me an email with some encouragement, and if you know of resources that might help me temporarily get settled in the austin/san marcos area. I'd appreciate it. I have a job and a place to stay till Tax season is over with (I'm a tax preparer for Liberty Tax Services). My strengths are ministry, communication, and computers. My ex bankrupted me before I left so I am starting all over. Thank you so much for your ministry. You have been an inspiration to mine.