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Jennifer5
05-07-2008, 12:59 PM
I don't really know which title would be more appropriate for this thread, so I chose both.

Yesterday was a weird day...

I spent a lot of the day thinking about my dad and what he's put us through (it was his birthday). I kept thinking that when it comes down to it there was only one thing that I can think of that I will NEVER be able to forgive him for. That was the time during the divorce that he tried to claim that the baby that my mom had lost was not his (Michael was his). I felt like I was watching the video playing back she we heard the accusation was made and how much that one hurt all of us. I kept thinking that I needed to get my letter to the therapist since he's about due to start harassing us again.... and my mind just kept going.

But where it gets weird... I was not talking to my mom or sister about all of this, I was just thinking it.

My sister said that she knew that we would be hearing from him that day, since it was his birthday (he sent us a card which said something like "it's my birthday, why don't you send me a card or call me and say something nice. Love, dad").

Now, my mom finally comes and gets us from school so that we can tie our brainwaves together even more...

As some of you know, she had been having some kind of serious medical issues lately... and she said that the reason that she was late was because she had to go home first and call the doctor to get some scan thing done. She said, I forgot that this could've been a problem. She asked, "do you remember that Michael was a twin; and that that was never fully taken care of?"

Of course I remembered that (we didn't know that he was a twin until after she lost him, the other baby hadn't made it very far)... she was saying that she was wondering if this was possibly part of what was causing her so many problems.




Alright... so, we weren't speaking to each other, but our minds were all thinking the same way; without knowing what was going on with the doctor or him contacting us, we were all thinking about these things. How can you explain this?

Who else has had this sort of thing happen to them?




sorry for the rambling, if what I said didn't make sense, I can restate things

Zerbie
05-07-2008, 01:16 PM
Anniversaries make us think of things that connect to them. Your family knew, like you knew, that your dad was sending energy around, such as in the form of that card. :( It makes sense that your mom and sister would also be sensitive to the same things, since you have shared so many experience.

Jen. I'm sorry. :( Big hugs. :love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::l ove::love:

Jennifer5
05-07-2008, 01:20 PM
Anniversaries make us think of things that connect to them. Your family knew, like you knew, that your dad was sending energy around, such as in the form of that card. :( It makes sense that your mom and sister would also be sensitive to the same things, since you have shared so many experience.

Jen. I'm sorry. :( Big hugs. :love::love::love::love::love::love::love::love::l ove::love:

Thanks. It actually didn't really upset me though.... I mean, there was a lot to be sad about, but my mind wasn't really working that way, I was simply amused. It was one of those things where the energy pumping through you is so strong, that you don't understand it, you just enjoy it. It made me think of hard times, but it also made me think of people that I miss and other things that were really good.:love:

Alecto
05-07-2008, 01:37 PM
I had a friend like that. I'd see something so totally ludicrous at the mall with a group of people, and everyone else would be oblivious but when I'd look up at her, she was already about to bust out laughing. No words. I think it's really awesome when that happens with someone.