tothemoon
10-23-2008, 04:51 PM
Hi, my name is Theresa. First, I know that I am an incredibly loved child of God. Second, I am a lesbian.
I am not sure I can pinpoint a reason that brought me to Soulforce. I do know that my journey in life has shown me authenticity is huge.
I am just a few months removed from a committed relationship of eight years where I was a stay at home parent to my former partner's child for the whole of our relationship. She announced one day that she was no longer gay and could not be with me any longer. And, of course, that I was an abomination. It has left me pretty shell shocked. I walked without her (the person who promised me a lifetime with her in a ceremony), without "my" son or contact with him, without a home, a job, financial stability, transportation, etc. She says it's all about God and expresses that I was an amazing partner and parent. The actions exhibit otherwise. I guess, in a nutshell, that's what is. I cannot allow that kind of shame and rejection to take over my life... God is not hateful and there to beat up me or anyone else. While I am shattered, beyond hurt and miss the kiddo, I know who I am at my core... God's child and who God created me to be. I am grateful for knowing God is bigger than any box a person, family, friend or church chooses to put Him or another person into.
Theresa
I am not sure I can pinpoint a reason that brought me to Soulforce. I do know that my journey in life has shown me authenticity is huge.
I am just a few months removed from a committed relationship of eight years where I was a stay at home parent to my former partner's child for the whole of our relationship. She announced one day that she was no longer gay and could not be with me any longer. And, of course, that I was an abomination. It has left me pretty shell shocked. I walked without her (the person who promised me a lifetime with her in a ceremony), without "my" son or contact with him, without a home, a job, financial stability, transportation, etc. She says it's all about God and expresses that I was an amazing partner and parent. The actions exhibit otherwise. I guess, in a nutshell, that's what is. I cannot allow that kind of shame and rejection to take over my life... God is not hateful and there to beat up me or anyone else. While I am shattered, beyond hurt and miss the kiddo, I know who I am at my core... God's child and who God created me to be. I am grateful for knowing God is bigger than any box a person, family, friend or church chooses to put Him or another person into.
Theresa