What's In her head.

[Sharieab]

Ok so I didn't know where to put this... I started dating the girl of my dreams recently (seriously she is!!!) She makes me want to be a better person and all that jazz... She just recently left for the military but that is besides the point (at the moment) The friday before she left she was really upset b/c she feels as though she may go to hell for being in this relationship. She has been out for a while and recently tried to "be straight" she said herself there is no way to do this. But she is scared with I guess good reasoning. Her best friend(in the same situation as her), her coach(let me not even start on the coach, but we can just say HYPOCRITE), her family has all said this to her....I'm so in love with this girl and can't see my future with out her. I don't know what to do. I was taught some of the same things she was, but I just know what I feel and I know that God wants his children to feel love and this is the first time I have truely felt loved.

[closetcougar]

Yeah,
My partner actually go engaged once while we were together...sort of a last ditch effort to go straight. It sucks and all you can do is let her figure it out and be there to support her and listen to her, IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WON'T SUFFER IN THE PROCESS. In my experience, the harder you try to push, the more she will feel like it is your agenda and not hers, thereby wanting to pull away even more. I am sorry for what you are experiencing right now and hope the my story sharing didn't take away from what you are going through, make it seem like I think that it is trite, because it is definitely a very personal and painful experience. Good luck.

[awediot]

AAaaarrgh... :mad: That can be so frustrating and sad... Sounds like she is the one who needs to be browsing around on here... Has she seen this site, or does she know of your association? May be a (3rd, 4th, 5th...?) step.

[Sharieab]

I never even thought about showing her this site... I will when she gets back (currently away for military. Thank you for sharing your insights ClosetCougar... I've thought about the pushing thing, I figure that is how it would be. So I've told her just do what makes her feel better, but that I'll always be here for her and alway love her. This girl seriously makes me want to be a better person. I love her so much and am so scared to lose her.

[closetcougar]

I can't even imagine what it must be like for you to want to do so much to help her, but to not know what to do or to not be able to do anything. If you think of it in terms of a Buddhist principle, fate is inevitable, it may just take a while for fate to run its course. Hang in there!! Especially if she is an amazing person...sounds like it would be good to have her in your life, regardless of the specific role she might play. Good luck,
CC

[Jennifer5]

I'm so sorry you are going through this ward time, remember no matter what happens things will get better, and while this is going on we're here for you, stop by more often:love: and get some hugs:love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: :love: I know it's really hard to see now, but in the end things will be okay:pray:

[Sharieab]

Thank you guys!! I'm trying to hang in there. I wish I could talk to her best friend but i have to like run around the fact that I'm in Love with the girl when I talk to her best friend. I'm moving out of my apartment, which has sooo many memories of her, so that should help some. I hope.

[Sharieab]

I GOT A LETTTTTER TODAYYYYYYY!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'm sooooooooo excited. (hints the way too many extra letters) I'm so Happy!!!! It was really short, but just to know that she is thinking of me means more than anything!!! :D :D :D