My name is Jason

[jpach30]

Hi there, my name is Jason and I really don't know what to say here. I found out that I was gay, I guess when I was 15 years old. I never really started to come out - but I came out just to few people. My family would disown me if I did. My dad has told me before that I would never marry a guy or a girl for that matter. He is so stuck up and my mom, well, I can open up to her more than I can to my dad.

Last year, I read a book that changed my life it was titled Out of Sync by Lance Bass and that book really opened my eyes to who I was. That book challenged me to look myself in the mirror eye-to-eye and tell myself that I am who I am and no one can change me. I'm not good opening up to strangers, but I guess we are all like that in the beginning.

You know, I'm not here to meet my mate, I'm here for a reason that is: to find people like me so I can open up to about my feelings about life. I hope that this is a good introduction. I love my life and I don't want anyone to take that away from me.

[keltic63]

welcome Jason!

you've found a safe place. there are plenty of folks around here who can share similar experiences and will let you know that there is life on the other side of the closet!

feel free to post away and ask your questions.

[scott snedeker]

Hi there, my name is Jason and I really don't know what to say here. I found out that I was gay, I guess when I was 15 years old. I never really started to come out - but I came out just to few people. My family would disown me if I did. My dad has told me before that I would never marry a guy or a girl for that matter. He is so stuck up and my mom, well, I can open up to her more than I can to my dad.

Last year, I read a book that changed my life it was titled Out of Sync by Lance Bass and that book really opened my eyes to who I was. That book challenged me to look myself in the mirror eye-to-eye and tell myself that I am who I am and no one can change me. I'm not good opening up to strangers, but I guess we are all like that in the beginning.

You know, I'm not here to meet my mate, I'm here for a reason that is: to find people like me so I can open up to about my feelings about life. I hope that this is a good introduction. I love my life and I don't want anyone to take that away from me.


Welcome Jason!

30 years ago when I turned 15 I was propbably in a similar circumstance. I was in suburban florida and there was no one I could talk to about the real me. Texas does not have a good reputation for being progressive or gay friendly, so the atmosphere for both of us is likely quite similar.

My father had suspicions of me being gay and made it clear how he felt when I was 10 years old. He took my arm and with it demostrated how he broke over his knee the arm of a man who came on to him.


I moved out on my own six weeks after my 18th birthday with a suitcase and a bicycle which was the earliest point that I had saved enough money to afford a dorm room and board

The difference I see is that you have won an inner victory that I had not until 11 years later when I finally faced my true sexual identity.

You are on the right track! Keep learning the true messages. You are a shining boy. you are entitled to be true to your nature and share with others your true self. This is your gift to friendship with others. People who want become friends and intimate lovers want the real you!

Continue to reinforce the truth that having the capacity for intimacy with your own gender is a gift, by reading affirming messages, stories and talking to folks who see you clearly as whole and in no need of change.

Welcome Home! I'm Glad you are here!

below is a link to a short story I wrote about a young gay fella who learned to love himself and others.

http://www.soulforce.org/forums/showthread.php?t=3925

[Gennee]

Welcome to the site, Jason. I'm pleased that you see yourself as a gay man. Be happy with who you are. Here, you can be yourself.

Gennee
:love::wave:

[Jennifer5]

Welcome Jason :wave:

I hope that you will come back and join in some of our conversations or start your own. This is a safe place, feel free to ask questions. :)

[antiochian]

Merry Meet, you are not alone at all! There are people here who will listen and who care. It's sad that family is often glbt people's greatest source of pain. You are most welcome here. Bright blessings!

[Libby]

Welcome Jason. I new here also. Stay true to yourself and your life will be so much better than it is to try to live with a lie every day.

Best wishes to you.