View Full Version : Hello my name is John
08-31-2009, 02:16 PM
I just finished watching "For the BIBLE tells me so" and it made me cry my eyes out. To know that religious society is finally (slowly perhaps but it's happening) changing it's views on my sexuality reduced me to tears. I am 32 yrs old and as a teenager I went through a very dark period as did many of us out there, questioning why GOD would make me this way just to condemn me to hell. Frankly this made no freeeeeking sense to me at all. I was in a psych ward after attempting suicide and was sitting in the courtyard on a very hot summers day crying and asking, no begging GOD for some sort of sign. "why would you do this to me" "what is the point of this pain" "please just let me know you care" My soul was in such pain, then out of the four corners of the courtyard came this breeze that met at me, it flowed up over my seated self and I have never felt such relief in my life. I have told this story to many people who look at me after the telling like perhaps I should still be in that psyche ward ;) but i know it was the answer, the sign that I was begging for and to this day I have had faith in the knowledge that GOD loves me, for ME. I could go on rambling for pages but I will refrain from boring you with my meanderings and instead wish you all a wonderful day and thank you for having such an important web site for people to visit and seek solace, acceptance and love!!!!
08-31-2009, 04:57 PM
Welcome, John. Tell us more about yourself. Come back and chat sometime.
Peace and Love, Bruce Chris
08-31-2009, 08:02 PM
Thank you so much for posting your introduction.
Please dive in and swim around. This place is yours, and I think you'll find many kindred spirits.
You're obviously a survivor...good for you! Your story is important, so please keep sharing it with others here.
08-31-2009, 08:08 PM
and I had a similar experience shortly after I came out. I was walking the beach early one morning, pouring my heart out to God, asking why, after all the trouble I'd gone through, had I been given this wonderful vacation with my 2 older children. I clearly heard God say that I was finally being the person God made me to be, and that this is what I could expect from now on.
It's only gotten better since then!
08-31-2009, 09:44 PM
you're welcome to bore us with your stories - this is the place - plus your experiences seem very similar to much of us and it is good for us to hear your story. welcome to soulforce!:)
08-31-2009, 09:48 PM
Welcome :wave: to the group, John. Loved reading your intro. It's true. God created us as we are and he loves :love: us. Please post here often.
09-03-2009, 05:50 AM
Wonderful story :)
And welcome to the boards.
09-10-2009, 05:19 PM
Hi, John! Many if not all of us have been in your shoes at some point. I remember being terrified of hell, terrified to let myself love, terrified to demand my rights as a gay human being. I've only started to really depart from those dark shores a couple years back. I've grown a lot, and still have a lot of growing to do. As do all of us. :)
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