LukeSurge
10-08-2009, 09:32 PM
Hi, as far as I want it known from now on, my name is Luke. I am (unfortuneately) a 21 year old female who is beginning my journey to become male. As the story always goes, I have felt male my whole life. My story might be a little unique on some points though. I am currently with the best childhood friend anyone could ask for. Weve been seperated for the last 7 years but we have refound each other. Weve been together for the last seven months and as a relationship goes, we couldnt be closer. Shes my world and she has always been my biggest support and Im finding that shes completely my other half, my soul mate. It has been very hard as when we found each other we were both married with a family but we were miserable and she was abused. We suffered for many months living under the nose of her husband (mine is actually fine with us being together, he wants me happy and he knows this is it. so im a very lucky person) but her husband is another story. Another challenge we face is her family. They hated me as a kid and as soon as they found out I was back in her life they freaked. So now they kind of know that shes leaving her husband for me which they have disowned her for, but to us its worth it. So now we have three kids and we believe she is pregnant with possible twins on the way. So were looking at being parents of 5 by the time Im 22 and shes 24. lol So this all alone brings some pretty interesting challenges to our lives. But were determined t do it together so we constantly have hope and optimism in our connection to one another, and our desire of having a big family together (which we have had for a while). Right now our kids are living with relatives. We both lost everyhitng in choosing each other and in moving out together. So were still gettig on our feet but were geting there. She is my biggest support in persuing a sex change. She remembers me as a kid. When I was young I went by Luke adn she would always refer to me as him and I got used to it. So now were doing it again. And again I go by Luke. And I feel most comfortable with this name and this is who I truly am as Im sure many can unserstand how I feel. I havent told anyone but her and two others about my desire for a sex change. But Im getting closer to coming out with it. I am now seriously planing on changing my name and changing all the things I can before I am really able to find the financial means of having this change done. I can at least start living the life I intend to and I can stop hiding it. My family i think is giong to be a problem. They are always in denial and I can only imagine how this one is going to go. I dont know how to tel them. I told my mom about my being with mandy. she flipped and said shed pretend it wasnt happening, s im not sure when to drop this one on her. But im confident that this is what I need and want to do and I am lucky to have the unshakable support of mandy. So ill be around the forums checking in on things, trying to get an understanding on how this works and where to start. Mandy wants to get me started as soon as our financial situation can handle the first steps and I think Im 100 % ready. So I know this was long but its nice to meet you all and any advice would be much welcome. Particularily on what I realy need to do first.:D