I doubt you are the first or only person to experience this. You've posted in the right place, soon someone will read your post who can answer better than I can, and from a Christian perspective. I am not Christian myself, can't even give you a name for my "spirituality" but whatever it is, I do practice it every day (I hope that makes some sense to you.)
Here's why I'm answering your post: I have not yet located a spiritual community that embodies all - or often not even most - of what I practice, of what I know to be spiritual truth. Some Christian denominations have parts of it, some Hindu or other eastern traditions embody parts of it. What this has meant for me is NOT attending a worship service or belonging to any religious organization until a time may come if and when I come across one that fits the whole me. From my experience, most churches are social above all else, and I have a social life without need to get up extra early on Sunday and go pretend that having a lovely sunday morning with friends is a "spiritual" experience any different than any other day/time/place.
Worshipping alone in the way that works for me suits me very well, as I have a tendency to prefer keeping the worshipful side of me private (unlike every other aspect of my life which I divulge freely). It may be different for you if being part of a religious community is a high priority for you - but right now it sounds like it may be a time for you to worship and practice your Christianity in private. Let that private worship take its course with you and your life. It may be that there is some other denomination out there that you find suits you and then you can re-join a community. Or maybe you need this time to yourself.
It's my firm opinion that you "can be" whatever it is you feel you are - if you feel you are a conservative evangelical Christian and that it isn't incompatible with being gay, well then that's what you are. God gave us intelligent minds so that we could use them and come to an understanding of truth on our own. Believe whatever you know inside to be true. What else *can* you do?
Meanwhile, wait a while and see who posts with some more specific Christian insights for you, since others will understand better the religious traditions you have been exposed to.
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