Originally Posted by andrewlittle
The larger questions are almost overwhelming. To where would we go? If I got a job, what would she do? What are the prospects for us? We are both disillusioned with the church as it is, and both very passionate about changing that. But how? And where? And how do we survive in the meantime?
Please pray for both of us, and for my wife in particular, as we wrestle with visions of being in ministry, and the idealism that we share. Together, at the moment, we just seem to hold each other and weep. Thatís good for now, but we needs Godís direction to be made clear.
Oh, Andrew, what a scary place to be in. And what an amazing couple you and Jenna are. I will put you both into my prayer circle. I highly recommend you find some of Dorothy Day's writings, perhaps her biography, "The Long Loneliness
." Dorothy was the founder, along with Peter Maurin, of the Catholic Worker
newspaper and movement. There's a movie out concerning her life called, "Entertaining Angels."
She had the most amazing trust in God that if what she was doing was God's work, God would always provide. And provide S/He did, on a daily basis. Stories abound of days upon days of bills coming in, and just "enough" money coming in that day. Today some 300 houses, all over the world, try to follow her way of life. Having run a Catholic Worker House, I have personally experienced days when our bills that had to be paid for that day might be $650; and sure enough that's exactly what would come in for the day. It was an amazing experience and has been the foundation of how I live my life since then.
Trust that God will get you through those scary moments. It will often get down to counting pennies, but somehow, with the grace of God, you will get through. This surely will strengthen your faith in the long run, but it's not an easy path.
Thank you for sharing this with us and know how deeply I, personally appreciate all that you share on this forum.