Thank you for sharing your story with us ... I concur with the various comments above, and I'm also sending you lots of big hugs ... as LGBT persons and allies, we love you just the way you are, and you are very welcome here.
By the way, you're not the only one here in your 50's, and with a disability that keeps you at home much of the time (same for me, though with a different health condition), and of course you are clearly not the only one here who feels that religious and other forms of oppression has to stop ... and fortunately Soulforce is a place that brings about that kind of change.
I hope you'll continue to join with us ... we love you! : )
Love & Hugs,