Originally Posted by scrupulous_stoic
No matter how old I am, I will never have all the answers.
I see you have realized this important truth at a younger age that I did. When I was your age, I had everything all figured out. I was just amazed that all the people around me were so confused. God must have just given me a superior understanding. (I was a real pain in the butt.) As I have gotten older, I realize that I know less and less about God. And in that realization I have come closer to him. To realize that I can't understand God and his ways, has been a revolution in my walk of faith.
My advice to you in your searching is to come to God in prayer. Ask God to show you what path he wants you to take. Ask him to lead you; be willing to follow his guiding.
When I stopped telling God how it should be and praying that he would do what I wanted him to do, he has led me in different directions than I had anticipated. I had never planned on going to the Catholic church, but it seemed to me that God's leading was pulling me there. I had never planned on accepting my homosexuality as a gift or planned on "coming out" as a gay person, but also God's leading in this seems unmistakable.
Oh and don't be surprised that old U-dog gets your name wrong. The poor guy is having a good day if he remembers how to put his boxer shorts on in the morning. Just humor him and let it go; that's how we all handle him.
Tu Amigo, Pablo