Don't be too hard on your good old self today. I feel discouraged frequently when I think of how daunting a task, or tasks, we seem to have ahead of us, yet so few of us to pursue it in active, 3D ways. I do agree and firmly state again that the external and especially, internalized homophobia that we have experienced in our lives, including our heterosexual allies, has created a direct impact on the lack of numbers that we see in direct action. I envision the possibility of a million of us on the Mall in DC, but first, we have to WANT to be visible, to be seen, to be recognized.
That is, as we all know, a very unique process for each one of us.
However, I have had a vision of something for the last few months, although not really sure how to have it come to fruition. I know that we have all joyfully written about the possibilities of having a SF picnic, meeting each other face to face. Along those lines, I think one way to unite the movement, at least to a degree, or to begin to discuss our differences, we should have a mid-country conference on just those topics, how to unite forces and create change LIVE. I think it is very easy for all of us, including myself, to be so inspired, determined, and ready to act when I am typing the words on a page. I had said last year that when Mia and I had first been trying to get a local activist group going, the overwhelming majority of those attending were/are straight allies, whom we need for sure, but my gay and lesbian friends were no where to be found.
That remains to be so, lack of generalized enthusiasm to get involved. I believe that many issues are ingrained in that, but homophobia, like with so many things we talk about here, is at the root by far.
That saddens me so much. But, I am not moved to quit.