I have been ok today, thanks. I feel that this is indeed a safe place for me to express myself. I'm glad, surprised, but glad to know that straight people are here as well.
I have known since I was 14 that I was attracted to guys, but I thought I would one day begin to be attracted to women. It didn't happen. Sometimes I wish I had never been married, but then I would never have had my daughters either. One of my friends is someone who wanted to become a pastor but didn't because he was gay and therefore not allowed to be ordained. I, on the other hand, said to heck with their rules and got ordained anyway.