Hi Chuck,
Don't know how I missed this one.
Welcome.
Another married (to a woman) gay guy here. I'm not a pastor, though I was asked to pastor a congregation where I taught. Baptist

, we all know how affirming Baptists are of gays

. I declined.
You will find you are not alone. There are some wonderful people here (really. I know several have said that, but it's really true). You'll be safe posting in the forums and there's always pm's for the really personal stuff. I hope this wil prove to be a place where you can be yourself, express your questions and answers and be authentic.
Paul