fear and desensitization
Chuck, I think you are doing great. You are overcoming your fear of the repercussions of being known as a Gay being. I think it is okay to come out in a piece at a time, to ease your fear a portion at a Time.
The worst fears are phobias like arachnophobia for instance. If you were to drop a tarantula on the head of someone with arachnophobia, you would traumatize that person. But if you gradually desensitized them by starting with a tiny spider across the room and each day got a little closer, eventually the person could be holding a tarantula and petting her.
You have had amazing success so far. You are pecisely where you are supposed to be right now. It's perfectly sucessful to venture only so far from your comfort zone and hold for a while until you are ready to venture further
Love and affirmation,
Forrester Tongpa Nyi (formerly Ash Phoenix, faeries evolve! )
When you come to know that your entitlement to joy is a given, All that remains is the exploration of the many different ways to let it in