I posted a lot of this in another thread, but I thought I would share it in this thread, also. Maybe someone can identify with me?
I'm out to my parents only because my mom had suspicions about me and asked my sister, who called a "family meeting" to "get it all out in the open". This happened several years ago, and to this day I could count on one hand the times I have ever spoken of or referred to my sexuality to my parents or sister. They are completely loving and accepting of my girlfriend, and I have been able to close the gap between us considerably in the past couple of years. However, I would love to share some of this information about Homosexuality and the Bible with them, because they are conservative Christieans. Both my father and my brother-in-law are Holiness preachers, and for those of you who are acquainted with "Holiness", you know what that means for me! I fight feelings of concern and frustration over their "burden" for me and my spiritual condition. In their eyes, I'm "lost", and I hate that they feel that way! Even though I attend a wonderful Nazarene church and am closer to God than I've been in years, I know they still feel that I can't be a Christian and be with another woman. Their feeling about this, along with being raised that way, causes me to continually question my relationship with God, also. I feel that I either need to constantly pray for forgiveness, or else I become "blind to the truth" by reconciling my sexuality with my spirituality.
I'm glad we found this place for support, advice, guidance, and information.