Welcome to SoulForce. We are like a family here and I am glad you found a place where you can be safe. I am sure that being alone is only a temporary situation and as you start to reach out to others in the community they will reach out to you. And you must remember that you are truly never alone, a higher power is there beside you and loves you just as you are. Many of us here have felt alone and full of despair to the point of suicide but we all know that isn't the answer. I am sure you will hear from Zerbie who is also in Arizona. She is a wonderful person. Right now she is very busy in Seven Straight Nights but I am sure you will hear from her. There are also very many people here that have sound advice and gentle. loving hearts. Welcome to the the SoulForce family.