Hi Juls,
There's a little bit I'd like to say, but unfortunately, we're having a minor crisis right now, so I have to log off and go solve it. Just want you to know, you have a neighbor in Arizona who is here, listening.
Re-training beliefs takes time. And you have a fine line to walk so that you don't throw out any of the beliefs that you hold sacred while you DO throw out those that have been less than edifying to you (to put it mildly, I think.)
Sorry. Gotta run off so fast.

I will be back later, and look for you.
Hope you're doing okay.