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Old 01-29-2009, 10:10 PM
tehillah05 tehillah05 is offline
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So I hate that little acroynm but I felt I had to use it. I just got done watching Prayers for Bobby - all in one sitting - online at Lifetime's website. I'm a pretty strong person when it comes to movies and I don't normally cry in movies other people cry in. Maybe part of it is grief from losing my grandfather 4 months ago so watching the Christmas scene was taking me back to last month (first Christmas w/o my grandpa). Or maybe - and this is probably most likely the case - it's because I'm closeted when it comes to my family. One family member knows...and I only told him because he's "family" (gay) too so...he already knew anyway. But as far as my parents, brother, grandmother(s), aunts, uncles, cousins? Nah...I'm so far in my closet it's the like the wardrobe in Lion, Witch & the Wardrobe.
I of course was raised in a religious household...not quite as fundamental as Bobby's but pretty close. Being gay just flat was NOT talked about...until my friend at church came out to me. THEN it was talked about until I was sick of hearing the words gay and lesbian. I prayed and prayed and obviously it didn't go away because like Sigourney says "...didn't need to be healed because there was nothing wrong." Now explaining that to my parents is going to be a whole nother issue (I'm from Missouri...but that phrase is a linguistic phenomenon...look it up lol). I cried when "Mary" broke down to the pastor - right after aforementioned quoted line - and again when she stood up to the City Council. I envision that for my mother...yet I'll be shocked if it ever happens. Her acceptance will be enough...when I'm ready to come out.

Overall, I loved the movie. I'm a big fan of Weaver anyway...she's one fierce actress!! My hope is that one day I can sit down w/ my parents and watch this movie....
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