There was a time I thought atheists were the most delusional of people. As I've grown over the years, I've come to love them! They (generally) aren't afraid to question, insist on the use of reason, are often strong advocates for human rights causes, and frankly many of them are good and decent people.
Pagans have a similar issue with "coming out of the broom closet," as they say. I've read some articles by gay witches who speak about something similar to what you're going through, Rick. I can surely understand. It was and still is hard to come out as gay. But doing it a second time with regards to my alternative religion and open up the door for further harassment and ostracism? I know my family will never understand, and most of them will never know. My lgbt friends have been supportive, except for one who said he was "worried for me."
You're a great guy in my book, Rick, whether you worship Isis, Jesus, the Good Humor Man, or Nobody!
"And though I may not know the answers, I can finally say I am free. And if the questions led me here, then I am who I was born to be." --Susan Boyle
"If all fools could fly, the sun would be eclipsed forever." --Dutch proverb