Originally Posted by keltic63
That's very interesting, but not all that surprising. my ex is a nurse, but never did well when our kids were sick. There always seems to be some disconnect when it becomes a bit more personal.
may I ask how you're feeling? Does it feel like your job performance is being affected? I understand how this would put you in a low mood, and that certainly doesn't motivate one to do one's best for the employer.... but I'm thinking more along the lines of what I told my kids and a few others when I first came out as gay: I've always been this way, YOU just have new information about me. If you've been doing the job, and continue to do the job, how does this new piece of info change the conditions of your employment?
This may get a little long. I have long called myself functionally insane - I actually told that to the search committee at the church. Now that I have a diagnosis, it actually makes me feel better in a way. I knew there was something beyond depression and PTSD, but never knew what.
I have functioned pretty well all along, even when in the depths of depression. It has been worse the last six months before being diagnosed, but I still functioned. The trouble is, for me, that i functioned adequately - I am more of a perfectionist than that. I am an over achiever.
So now to your question? This is me - this is who i have always been, except more stable now than ever before. personality wise, though, I'm me. And that me is being rejected lock, stock and barrel because of what others think about a particular facet of my being. (yeah, I knew what you are asking). Yes, I feel violated and rejected because of what makes me me. It must be something akin to what you felt - I think.