Years ago I was asked by a nurse who worked for me if i could give her some ideas of how she could help with a "mission" by her church to deliver medical care in a "clinic" and spiritual "assistance in Haiti."
So I asked her:
"What type of medical problems are you expecting to encounter?"
"I don't know"
"What medical treatment will you be rendering then?"
"Well, they said we we would give an aspirin or something and that's why they asked me to come with them."
At this point the pit in my stomach wrenched and a cold sweat passed over my neck and shoulders. I didn't want to offend her but I felt I had to say something.
"I have a very uneasy feeling about this whole thing, don't you?"
"It sounds like they are drawing people in with a false promise of real medical care in order to preach gospel."
At this point she became very embarassed.
She backed out, and months later confided to me that she was grateful that she had. She so wanted to be valued by the members of her church that she ignored her gut feeling that what they were doing was very insincere.
Your situation sounds equally toxic to me by what you have said in your posts. I'll bet that if you search your feelings, you will find something very morally wrong about this situation also.
Haitians are very vulnerable people who are being visited by these people who outwardly psychologically prey on another very vulnerable group......gay folk
I feel a twist in my gut again.
Love and affirmation,
Forrester Tongpa Nyi (formerly Ash Phoenix, faeries evolve! )
When you come to know that your entitlement to joy is a given, All that remains is the exploration of the many different ways to let it in