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Originally Posted by Dash
I felt like my life was absolute nothingness...worthless...like I was an insignificant speck lost in the vastness of the cosmos. Long nights writhing in my sheets in the most excruciating pain, and sometimes feeling...sensing...the corners of reality lifting just the tiniest bit, and glimpsing...impossibly...the immensity of all that is behind EVERYTHING. There was no way to comprehend or deal with what I felt. On the cusp of sanity, thinking only how meaningless...meaningless...meaningless it all was.
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Good god man, get a room.
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Well I can’t quite contend with that level of poignancy but I do have a full two and a half cents worth which I’d like to contribute, (if you’d so oblige
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Originally Posted by Daniel
The point was to stretch it, lengthen and shape it. But this can't be done quickly or it will break.
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^That’s the confusing part. Not knowing that the discomforting change is for the better. It’s often so gradual we forget what the goal is.
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Originally Posted by Daniel
Its been my perception that we often have to go back to go forward. In teaching voice (another thing we share), I see that the student often has a 'dip' or 'tunnel' experience before a new plateau is reached. It's almost as though they have a real good look at what they are leaving behind before they get comfortable with the New.
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^That resonates with me. I often have to get angry enough to recognize what is really important. But the leading up the angry part is usually seen as a meaningless downward spiral, as opposed to 'just' a dark tunnel leading to an epiphany. Therein lies the challenge, especially when in regard to faith.
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Originally Posted by baldness_65
Zerbie, I understand completely what you mean. You are not where you want to be. ..Not sure how to get there...and pissed off at yourself about the whole thing. Been there...heck, I'm still there.
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^mee too!
(Almost Famous)
Zerbmeister,
There’s a line in a Christian song that goes “Who we really are is who we wanna be.” When I take that to heart it’s profound.
Like the throngs of fans at a rock concert, who all want to be the star,
cuz that who they really are. Of course you can apply that to your ambition of choice. I use that example because apparently in God’s eyes, I’m a rock star.
I find too that most “bad” days are the result of unresolved issues and that anxiety attacks are the result of long term suppression of them. I think for people like us who are intelligent and courageous enough to look at ourselves, when things like this really bother us it’s usually associated with past patterns of thought that we think we’ve since overcome. It just means we have to look a little deeper and forgive ourselves a little more.
-Not that I’m good at it mind you, but I am good at explaining it.
{P.S. I didn't know you guys sang too, what a meaningless coincidence. That makes my rock star analogy all the more relevant. }