Originally Posted by Zerbie
What's bothering me most about the recent developments is the difference in the way I am inside and the way I see "my" words, behavior, even singing, everything really, coming out in the outside. What I observe being said, done, doesn't reflect the way I feel myself being on the inside. Like I don't know how to act in the world according to how I feel myself to be.
Did you mean to write in rather than on? If you meant to write "in" one might say that you are experiencing a phenomina called 'witness consciousness'. The sentence structure implies that there is an 'in' to an 'out'- all is seen from the 'in' perpsective. Makes everything seems a bit funny, like it isn't real- or even dreamlike? If so, you could be walking about in an altered state. oops! is that ok to say here?
I think a classic remedy for this kind of thing is called "grounding'.