Thanks for the reply Gennee.
One thing about Christians is they will first just say "yeah, I am...", as though they all know exactly what is being asked and do not have to initially think about the answer... Then they may elaborate and qualify on their affirmative...but the term itself is most importantly an affirmation that doesn't care what this world has done to, nor thinks about it...
~I am too... A rotten, freakishly conservative, hypocritical, way to nonjudgmental, reluctant and blessed Christian who chose to be so, no more than I chose to be gay... Sadly, I am disillusioned by the orthodox/fundamental church that are my brethren who I'm meant to know forever, and often feel shame at the association the label brings. There are more liberal, loving and understanding congregations who radiate spiritual fruits that the mainstream mostly just judges others by... Many refuse to even believe such creatures as us can exist. I am a heretic to them and I may darken their Churches door, but I cannot join, nor so much as break bread with them... I've told many "so don't call me a Christian..." It doesn't change what I believe or who I am...
I am torn between recoiling away from the gay community as I am from what passes as the Christian Organized Religion... I am...just trying to figure out SoulForce again... Who are they, and what do they want, and can I ever call them "we", as I used to feel like doing. ~That God has ensured my knowledge, belief and faith not hinge on men, is a gift I am barely beginning to let myself appreciate.