Hi all, my name is Nicki...And I am 20 y/o I am from Uzbekistan Tashkent... and in God I trust, I love Jesus, and try always pray...
My mum, know that I am lesbian, till my 17 years. All I want, that we will be happy for me. Now she came from Alma-aty (Kazakhstan closest republic to Uzbekistan)... And I am very happy that she came...
Also I have one moment in my head.... I had relations for Long time , with one girl... She is 32, beaty... she got married but divorced... and she has 2 children (boy 6 and girl 12)... I realy tasted happiest with her... But we finished our relation,few days ago... I loved her, and I think always do... But I can't believe that she will not able to be my... but I would like be with her...
One day she says me, Nicki, I am straight not lesbian, I can't show you my love in public,in hotel (we work in InterContinental Hotel together she is investor in Ministry of Foriegn Economy and I work in Travel Agency) also we says that still afraid be my woman, coz before our relations she was natural...I don't know how explain her, that I don't wanna be with another girl, coz she is God's gift to me... Herself she said that she was unhappy till I appearanced in her life, and I present her the new emotion,open her mind, - but she'd gone from me.. and I can't believe it...
She 's from Islam family, and she think that her fon't understand... But children realy love me and iether I...
I am realy confused, and don't know how to be....