I'm so sorry to hear that your love has left you. I'm sure Lola has her reasons, and I'm certain it's not easy to be an out gay person in your country? Maybe she was struggling within herself and not yet ready for a relationship. For whatever reason, you are hurt and having a really hard time, I know. I'm so sorry for your hurt.
Just know that in time, like Kara said you will see that another door has opened. Possibly only because a previous door was shut. People move in and out of our lives for various reasons, but our experiences with them are what make us who we are at that moment. It's hard to savor the sad moments, but in this life, it's all about the journey. So try to hold tight to the goodness, love and happiness you had with Lola, and the hope that you will have that again in your life. Having your time with her will make your future more special.
I'm glad you found us here! Yes, please do tell us more about where you are from and how it is as a gay woman there. I'm very interested to know more about you. You sound like a very loving and strong person. Welcome to the forums!!