Lola sayed me that she call ... but phone is silent...friends call me, and try support me... And I try don't think that our relations broke up....
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I don't know... why I I have gone in cycles that I am lonely....If Jesus loves me why I am worring.... may be it's hard for me undestand - time comes and I ll have to love another woman....BUT I WANNA love Lola.... she always undestand me without any words....she always call me - and felt that something happened....something good or bad..... I try undestand her...that she 's from Islamic family.....and she didn't choose any variant in religion...and it a big fear for her... love me, i know she loves me....but she can't...
but it's more difficult to undestand - why doesn't she even want be friends with me... may be she think it will be good for me....I don't know.....I am really confused...
I remember only good moment with her....all moments were the best....what about I am saing
even now I am smiling coz I never forget her jokes, her voice, her care, and her attentiveness.... Her children Kamilla - is wondefull girl.....she still call me and ask me when I come to her place and play games.... she likes ski....
Oneday some lady sayed me.. "When somebody says he's lonely and nobody loves him- it's mean that only one person doesn't love him" it's crazy but its true....
When I had Sergio (whom about I wrote last time... my best friend who gone to our Jesus
and he is in paradise now))) I always tell him about everything..... and now... I am writing here....Soulforce like my dairy, and place where I am relaxing...
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) My thread "My name is ..." now called "My life is......"
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR SUCH SUPPORT and warm
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