I don't know how much my opinion counts here...not being able to relate, at least, to being gay but...I can relate to the feeling that God must not love me...because of what other's tell me of God.
When it comes down to it, no one person can tell you what God thinks. Who are they? And even if they could say "God says this" well...look towards the example of the workers in the field - who thought it was unfair that the owner of the field give those who started work later in the day as much money as those who started first thing in the day. It's God's choice, his mercy, his grace. Who is anyone to tell you what God thinks of you. I know - but what does it matter what I say?!? I'm just a lover of Christ who has yet to get over the shame of her youth and to forgive a handful of people who have consistently beat her down?
When it comes down to it, I know in my heart of hearts that God does love me and that Christ died for me - which was love. Whether or not someone accepts Christ, he died for them as well. To me, that speaks volumes - he died for those who will never accept him and those who have/will...seems to me that means his love is for everyone.
Ok, so I've been called lately to do instant praying...so here's a prayer for you - hope you don't mind - if I don't do it now...I'll let it slide later...
Father God, I come to you now in prayer for my sister, Susan and her girlfriend - beautiful women who you knit together in the wombs of their mothers and breathed life into their lungs. That is love. Giving life is love, and Father I know you love these two woman. Father God I ask for you to make plain and clear the love you have for these two women - and to give them both discernment when it comes to what is the truth, and what is not. Father I ask for healing for Susan's girlfriend, who is dealing with the pharisees in her childhood! I thank you that Susan and her girlfriend have been seeking you out, and that they have each other to rely on. I just pray that Susan will see that your love is available for everyone, despite what others might want her to believe. I pray that you will raise up a church and a pastor that has a heart for gay christians who need healing in regards to 'bad religion'...a pastor that doesn't want to fix them, but let's them know that they are already the people God intended them to be. I'm asking all of these things in Christ's name...Amen.