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For some reason I feel there is some sort of force inside of me that tries t push away all the good things in my life and bring forth the bad. For example, dating people that I know were no good for me and a bad influence but I still tried to be with them, porn, lusting, giving up on myself etc. I am currently in a new relationship now and this guy is PERFECT!!! But is seemed like I'm always looking for something to be wrong with him or something tells me "he doesnt love me" blah blah blah. I am so tired of it. I wont stop. I need guidance. I pray to God but i wont go away. And it doesnt help that I over think everything. The thing is he's the one I've always been looking And on for..like really. And now that I've found him its like this force is working double time. What is this phenomenon?


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