It tough to have to pretend to be something one is not. I did that for many many years. Sometimes we have no choice, however. It seems like right now you are in a position where things are not under your control. It is only for a time, however.
I wish you the best on your college experience. I hope you will join in on discussions here on the forums.
Tu Amigo, Pablo
For I am convinced that neither life nor death...neither the present nor the future nor anything in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39