I've been feeling conflicted lately with how my life is progressing.
I always planned to go to college, get my RN, and be a nurse. Things in that plan got kind of fuzzy. I've planned to try to go to Penn State and get my RN this fall, but I'm feeling conflicted.
I'm planning to move out with my gf in December or January - possibly a few towns over, but still within close driving range. We'd like to move to wherever my girl can find a teaching job because she graduates in December. I'm also hoping to be a part of the Equality Ride in 2007 and be a big part of a local Soulforce group. The biggest thing that makes me want to hold off on college is that I'm finding that I enjoy leading people. I'm finding that I like teaching (but I don't think I want to be a teacher) and I like helping people. I'm not sure what job that creates, but I'm rethinking nursing and I'd hate to get halfway through and decide to change it.
What stops me from holding off is that my family is really pushing me to go to college. I'm already an anomaly in my family for being gay and for not following the high school - college - job plan. I don't know how they'll take it if I tell them I'd like to wait another year or so, but I'm not sure I've decided where to be in life yet.
What to do?