Its difficult when your family won't accept you. Luckily mine is pretty cool about it (well, they try at least..but they still have their moments) but my girlfriend's family threatened to sue me...so, needless to say they're not so accepting. But, I have come to terms with my faith and sexuality, and pray that those who condemn us will understand someday as well. Good luck! I'm glad that you didn't succeed in killing yourself, that would have been a terrible tragedy.
Welcome to the forums! I hope you find the support you need.
"Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down
Oh Comforter and Friend
How we need Your touch again
Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down
Let Your power fall
Let Your voice be heard
Come and change our hearts
As we stand on Your word
Holy Spirit, rain down"
Holy Spirit Rain Down-Hillsong