[Saru]

Well I first came out, to my best friend in May of '09, when she asked if I wanted to go to prom with her. (she told me previously she had a huge crush on me, and she still does >.> ) I said no, and she ran away crying, and I just felt so guilty. I e-mailed her that I was gay, and everything I went through and why I couldn't tell her etc. She said ok, and she is a bit of 'fag hag,' so she had no problem adjusting.

Then one night in September of '09 I was in freshman Earth Science, and for some reason just decided to tell the rest of my friends. They were always cool about it, and that was an amazing feeling. I was raped when I was young, (sorry if thats TMI) and ever since then I had felt like a freak, and I told no one (my parents still don't know), but when my friends said it was cool I just felt really good for once.

My work found out when my friend sent me a txt regarding something about how she wanted to know if I thought this guy was gay, and I read the text aloud and a co-worker heard me. Dang. Luckily every single girl there is a lesbian, or bi (no joke!) so that's great as well. My boss is a homophobe unfortunately, but I'm a great worker so he just doesn't talk about it.


I am not sure if I will ever come out, to my parents. I may just show up when I'm 30 or so, and say deal with it. They are so very anti-gay I fear for my life that they will fiind out and kill me. (they have a gun under the bed) but, I mean heck, they might wierdly be O.K. with it, in my dreams.