As a Christian, I guess I'm expected to tell you that Jesus Christ is Lord and all that stuff, which I truly believe to be true. But I have found through my own trial and error that you need to find the religion that you actually feel connected to. I do not believe you will be condemned just because of your skepticism. I have had many experiences with people trying to force religion on me, and it always made me want to turn away from that religion; it was not until I had the comfort and knowledge that I would be supported in any choice that I was able to truly settle into my Christianity. This is what I hope to provide for you, you are loved and supported by me (and I believe many other people here on soulforce). You will not be told you are wrong because you are struggling with figuring out your religion, it is a struggle many people have gone through.
I hope you find your way, I will be praying for you.
"Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down
Oh Comforter and Friend
How we need Your touch again
Holy Spirit, rain down, rain down
Let Your power fall
Let Your voice be heard
Come and change our hearts
As we stand on Your word
Holy Spirit, rain down"
Holy Spirit Rain Down-Hillsong