It it is quite a journey that I am on but I am slowly but surely making it. I just really hope to reconnect with God like I want to. A friend told me about a counselor at my school, so I'll be seeing him for the first time next week. Also from my understanding of ex-gays, some people are homosexual(I really don't like the western ideas of categorization but will use it to make it easier to explain my point) for different reasons. Thus the reperative therapy doesnt work for everyone. Everyone comes from all walks of life.
Ex1: a man who is struggling with his same sex desires was rapped as a young boy, and grew up wanting that feeling again, but eventually was terribly unhappy. So he went through reperative therapy and was much better off, even though he still had still attracted to the same sex occasionally he found his true happiness with a woman. (ex-gay)
Ex2: a man who had same-sex attractions all his life has made the choice to go through reperative therapy due to the fact that his faith(and society) is unaccepting of him. He eventually sees that repearative therapy is doing more harm than good for him and learned to be at peace with God and his sexuality. It wasn't for him. (ex-ex-gay)
Both of these men were categorized as homosexual based on what bodies they are sexually attracted too. However on was not a "true" same-sex loving individual. Maybe there should be different names for people like this. This is confusing.
PS: I know that some ex-gay organizations do in fact use "controlling" methods. Some admit that reperative therapy may not work for everyone (anyone).