My best advice is to consider moving on. There are other denominations, and ones that I'm sure would be glad to have you! You can always try and stick it out, and hope that you'll get somewhere with these people if you keep trying, but consider whether the damage to your emotional and spiritual wellbeing is worth it.
"And though I may not know the answers, I can finally say I am free. And if the questions led me here, then I am who I was born to be." --Susan Boyle
"If all fools could fly, the sun would be eclipsed forever." --Dutch proverb