I want to thank all of you for sharing. I have battled the suicide thing several times but I havent tried or even really thought about it since I was 18 and I am in my 30's now.
I knew I was different at an early age and I believe that kids know what they are even if one cant put a name to it. Yes, I am finding great support on this site. I am so glad that this site is here.
I hope that anyone who reads these posts no matter how old they are will see that they are not alone. And to the preachers, I say this: Start teaching the love of god and not hate. Jesus TAUGHT how to live for him each day and so we need to learn this for our lives.
Pull the plank out of your own eyes before you try to pull the splinter out of mine. Start showing the love of god in your own lives so I can see how its done and then I can show his love toward others.
I dont hate the gloom and doom preachers, I just want them to love me like Jesus does and let him make the choice to condemn me or not.
Thanks for listening folks.