Hi Elizabeth. Yes, alot of us have been there, where you are now. We can relate. I personally came out of a straight marriage, of course to a TG man, but no one knew that at the time. So, yes, some of us hide for a very very long time in an effort to appear straight, or because we are on a journey of accepting ourselves. You have come to the right place.
Don't be afraid, it's only love!